The Explanation
(for those who require one)

And, of course, that is what all of this is -- all of this: the one song, ever changing, ever reincarnated, that speaks somehow from and to and for that which is ineffable within us and without us, that is both prayer and deliverance, folly and wisdom, that inspires us to dance or smile or simply to go on, senselessly, incomprehensibly, beatifically, in the face of mortality and the truth that our lives are more ill-writ, ill-rhymed and fleeting than any song, except perhaps those songs -- that song, endlesly reincarnated -- born of that truth, be it the moon and June of that truth, or the wordless blue moan, or the rotgut or the elegant poetry of it. That nameless black-hulled ship of Ulysses, that long black train, that Terraplane, that mystery train, that Rocket '88', that Buick 6 -- same journey, same miracle, same end and endlessness."
-- Nick Tosches, Where Dead Voices Gather

Notice and Apology

I'd like to apologize to regular 'Gunslinger' habitues for my dearth of posts recently. It has not been from an absence of desire on my part, believe me; more the result of time-consuming circumstance beyond the control of all mortals (even those who don't visit this blog).

I'd also like to apologize, this time in advance, for what promises to be an even greater period of absence in the coming weeks. My father passed away today; and while a part of me wishes it had been anyone else, I'm even more glad that he's finally free of the raft of illnesses which overtook his being in the last six weeks like the most merciless sundown that ever was. He and I had more than our share of differences over the decades . . . much more than our share (a life submerged in Cinema being, to him, a life squandered) . . . but in the last two years we managed to repair all the damage he and (mostly) I had inflicted. I just wish that could have gone on longer. It wasn't enough time.

So why am I telling you all of this? Because due to this and other circumstances of a far more benign nature, my time will not be my own for the next 4-5 weeks, and that means no time for 'Gunslinger'. Sure, it's conceivable that I could steal the odd minute or two (or three) and get back to infrequent bidness here, but in the event I'm unable to . . . well . . . now you know the reason why.

Let me take this opportunity to wish you all, you and yours and my co-conspirators here, the happiest of holidays.

Tom

86 comments :

Captain Angry Ranty Pants said...

This site is great and we will wait for your return.

Take whatever time you need

Balbi said...

I follow u for a couple of months and I really sorry about your lost. I never comment before for my poor english (I'm from Argentina). I wish find a way to pass this hard time. In a way, watching your images I feed you as a friend.

Monique said...

Wow...so sorry to hear about your loss! Take all the time you need; I and countless others genuinely love this blog and we understand your need to spend time on more important things right now.

Tom said...

My deepest condolences.

a. said...

I'm so sorry to hear about your father, but glad you're taking some time off to deal with everything that's going on in your life. Take all the time you need and I hope everything works out well. Your readers will still be here waiting when you're finally ready to get back to Gunslinger!

Bukowski's Basement said...

Sincere condolences...

Matt Dowell said...

Sorry for your loss. Your blog brings me a little joy everyday and everyday I am appreciative. Take your time.

Zach Campbell said...

My sincere condolences, Tom. My thoughts are with you and your family at this time.

Anitra said...

My deepest condolences to you and your family.

Joey said...

So sorry for your loss Tom.

We look forward to your return, but please take your time! Hope you have a great holidays...

PS said...

Thanks for all the great pictures and titles - much appreciated.

pmclaughlin said...

Sorry for your loss. Best wishes.

Vanwall said...

My condolences, Tom, that's a tough loss. Take it easy, my friend, and we'll see you when you return regular.

hoberion said...

sorry to hear about your father, wish you the best

@mcnallyconsults said...

My thoughts are with you. I lost my father two years ago. To be precise I - and he - knew exactly where he was at the time but you get my drift. I'm glad you had the chance to fill in the gaps. As far as Gunslinger is concerned I look forward to your return. It's not acknowledged enough how inspiring the blog is and I'm sure your readers will be here - hungry for more - when you return. Now I think it's 'me time' for you. I hope the next months are more about good memories than sad.

Mike

Emilio said...

I will wait you Gunslinger.
Best wishes.

Laura Brown said...

I'm so sorry. May he rest in peace.

jlmartin63 said...

Tom,
My father passed away few years ago after 10 months trapped by the illness.
I read your post and "empathy" becomes a very tiny word to express my "emotional solidarity".
If I say "take your time" I'll feel stupid. Anyway, take your time.
All the best.
José Luis Martín

tony said...

I Am Very Sorry to Hear Of Your Loss. Best Wishes.

Bill Crider said...

My deepest sympathies on your loss. My father died 13 years ago, and I still think about him every day.

David said...

Very sorry to hear that. Take all the time you need.

BR said...

We are sorry for your loss. Please feel no guilt for taking care of that which need caring. We all enjoy your site and look forward to your return.

freonbingo said...

That's really sad news. Hope this period is not too difficult for you. Looking forward to more 'Gunslinger' greatness when the time is right.

Vergilio said...

Tom,
My condolences. Take the time you need but ... come back soon.

And, as this is the moment, good holidays.

Vergilio

Craig B. said...

Tom,

My deepest sympathies. I've been through it and through it again.

While I'm on here, let me just say that I look forward on a daily basis to your page and have for a couple of years. Gunslinger is the only blog I follow faithfully. Just wanted you to know your work does not go unappreciated.

Keep strong and get back to us when you're ready.

Craig Brazier - Toronto, Canada.

fred said...

Condolences. I know what it is like to have an ill father and then to wish things might have been a bit different when he and you were younger. Though my father and I were not at odds with each other, I was never close enough as now I wish I had been. And now, looking back, I feel that way about my own 4 children (two are not kids!), and regret this and that.

I am 81 years old and still think of my parents often and of those children I will leave behind soon enough.
xxx

Art Rock said...

My condolences. Take your time. Blogging should never be an obligation. Delight us with new posts when YOU feel ready for it.

K. R. Seward said...

Profound sympathies to you and your family.

estiv said...

So sorry to hear about this, Tom. I lost my own father thirty years ago now, but he remains an important part of my life. So glad you had the opportunity in the last two years to improve things -- not everybody gets that chance. Take your time; we'll be glad to see you back when you're ready.

marietta said...

HI tom,i wish you many strength but also hope for the next time and peacefully days.will be happy wrote to you soon,and reading from you also,marietta.

Todd Jones said...

My sincere condolences, I will be praying for you and your family.

jim smith said...

Tom: Sorry to hear about your father. May he rest in peace. Jim Smith

Andy 7 said...

Sad to hear of your loss. Delivering you my strength and support in these sad times.

Clive said...

The Benedictus of the Missa Solemnis.

www.youtube.com/watch?v=f5cOfF9ZDAM&feature=related

Dennis said...

So sorry for your loss.

Matt said...

Please don't apologize. Your blog has brought nothing but joy to the lives of others and what can be considered 'squandered' about that? Your absence will surely be felt at the tail end of a long work week but my heart goes out to you and yours in your time of need.
-Matt @ www.everydayanothersong.com

Lally said...

I have been a loyal follower of your blog almost since it began and am personally familiar with some of the people you've featured in your posts and share your interests and often your taste as far as I can discern it from your titles and choices. May I offer a quote from the poet Ted Berrigan that I use when someone passes who I loved:

"The heart stops briefly when someone dies,/a quick pain as you hear the news, & someone passes/from your outside life to inside. Slowly the heart adjusts/to it's new weight, & slowly everything continues, sanely."

Jason said...

I'm sorry for your loss, Tom. As so many others have already said, take the time you need. We'll be waiting when you're ready and able to return.

Timmy said...

"May the 4 winds blow you safely home."

Robert Fiore said...

Maybe you could drop one last Seminal Image from The Eternal Return?

Pris said...

I just found your blog and am now following. My condolences on your loss and the difficult time before your father died.

Warhol Superstar said...

My condolences, Tom. Take care.

-- E

Sonja said...

My deepest sympathies for you and your family. The important thing is that you be well. We all can wait for you to come back whenever you come back.

Best Regards.

Fred said...

I am very sorry to hear this news, Tom. My sincerest condolences to you and your. May you find the strength and peace of mind to get you through this difficult time.

Rebeka Ceravolo said...

Dear Tom:

So sorry to read your sad news. Now is the time to take of yourself and your family's needs first. I know that I will wait and look forward to your next post - whenever that will be.

My sympathies to you.

Becky

danny said...

Tom -

your blog delights me, walking through the annals of culture and time, but what you talk about surpasses all of that. go, and devote time to your self. return if you wish. thank you and i am sorry.

daniel

m.a.g. said...

My Deepest Regrets.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tsu9rAkCxyQ

pal shazar said...

best wishes.

Mikel J said...

Tom:
So sorry to hear about your Dad. Hopefully in the time he was with us he visited this blog and was very proud of his offspring. My sympathies with you. God Bless!
Mikelj

JonCow said...

My deepest condolences. It has been a supreme pleasure to know you through your blog, and I wish you peace in the days and weeks to come.

PCtag said...

I am glad you had the opportunity to start repairing your relationship before your father's
passing. In the years to come that will bring you much comfort.

By the way a life in the cinema or any other endeavor that fulfills you is never a wasted life. And what you have done on the internet in this blog has enriched the lives of all who have stopped by to drink from your well. Thank you for the gift! I wish you well.

Tom

David said...

All the best Tom. We'll be here when you get back.

Dave

Steve said...

No need for apologies -- each of your posts is a gift.

Sometimes our concerns lie someplace other than our desires. It is a blessing that you were able to repair the relationship with your father. You -- and we -- must honor that relationship and allow you to take the time to do what must be done.

Vishu Gurram said...

--

My heartfelt sympathies for your loss. keep the faith.

--

Peter Yezukevich said...

May you find some peace and strength through those around you and know your community here wishes you well. Thanks for sharing such a personal, real thing with us. Someone else here got it right: "It's not acknowledged enough how inspiring the blog is and I'm sure your readers will be here - hungry for more - when you return."

Joe Thompson said...

I'm sorry that you lost your dad, but I'm happy that your relationship got better in the last couple of years. Don't worry about the blog, worry about yourself and your family.

Bill said...

My condolences as well, and my thanks for the work you do here.

walker said...

sorry for your loss

Christopher said...

Don't you worry about us Tom..you go on and do what you need to do..I went thru this with my Dad..and may soon with my Ma..May God be with you..and he is,We'll still be here when its all sorted out ;o)...

KC said...

Sorry to hear the news. All the best to you and take care.

Danielle Rodeo Warhola said...

Sorry to hear, but best of love and holidays to you as well.

<3

Alex said...

You put that so beautifully. Condolences, and thanks for your blog.

John said...

My condolences. Take the time you need.
In the meantime, I'll find something else to do with the 4-5 minutes I spend every morning with my first cup of coffee - probably not nearly as entertaining though.

Richard said...

I am very sorry for your loss.

Your efforts here are greatly appreciated. I will continue to visit regularly and hope that eventually time and circumstance allow you to return to indulging your audience.

42nd Street Memories said...

Sorry to hear of your loss, Tom.

And thank you for the enjoyment (and education) that you have provided over the years.

Here's to a better 2011.

Melicia said...

I 'm really sorry for your loss and like all the others I'll be waiting here for your return.

Thomas said...

I'm sorry for your loss.

I enjoy this site, and eagerly await your return. Fortunately for me, there's a wealth of material in the archives for me to explore. :)

Best wishes for a happy holidays!

Sock MonKey 1 said...

My condolences, Tom. I know this is never an easy thing to bear.

JDean said...

Your parents' dying is the last thing they do for you.

Max Frost said...

Condolences. Good luck to you and your family from here on out. Drive on...

Tom Degan's Daily Rant said...

Sorry for your loss, Tom. I'm sure I speak for everyone when I say that we understand you have other more important things to do for the time being.

You have a fantastic site here, pal. Best wishes and sympathy to you and your family.

All the best,

Tom Degan

Ed Howard said...

Tom, I'm so sorry to hear about this. My condolences, and best wishes in this tough time.

michaelE said...

Happy for his spirit & truly sorry for your grief....

Woody said...

Commiserations, Tom. Best wishes for the festive period. We'll all be waiting here for you when you get back.

mister muleboy said...

I'm very sorry for your loss, and please know that your friends here wish for your comfort and happiness.


Good luck.

Chip Hilton said...

A couple of posts before me, Balbi said it most poignantly.

Sincere condolences, Tom. Take your time . . . we'll all willingly wait.

cjc15153 said...

Sincere condolences. I wish I could offer the same pith and insight that you regularly manage.

Tempest said...

My prayers are with you. I lost my Mother December 2, 1989.

I have an idea what you are going through.

Loye said...

Best wishes...

Matt said...

My own old man is beginning chemo-radiation sometime between Xmas and New Year...
It's been a hard couple of months and is shaping up to be a lot more hard months.
Thanks for filling us in on your real-world crap-to-deal-with, and know that we understand...
It's nice having you around, when I go looking at the internet, but it's better knowing that you are around, on the planet, doing the shit that needs to get done.

Hai Keba! friend.

Jozephus said...

My condolences mate. As one who lost a father a little over a year ago, I have to say the same thing. I wish we had longer. So many supposedly "important" issues seem like utter stupidities now. I believe in a love that is literally and physically 'stronger than death' like the Song of Solomon describes, but even still...anyway, again, sorry to hear it.

minus said...

Take your time. Sorry about your loss. The death of one's father is a major turning point in anyone's life. We all appreciate your special touch and will miss the updates.

MichaelRyerson said...

Hearftfelt condolences to you and your family. As lovely as this website is, yours are the chores of real life. My father's decline likewise left us with too little time but I wonder if a satisfactory horizon even exists. Be well.

Gerard Saylor said...

My sincerest condolences.

Tommy O'C said...

Our prayers are with you, your family and dad, Tom.

TaLo said...

I hope you're hanging in there and saving the best memories, the only ones worth holding on to for any length of time. Please accept my condolences. I love your work.